The Past is the past, and it needs to stay there.

WOW.

How do I even begin to explain this week? I’m sitting here with my puppy, in the dark at 1 am, recollecting this crazy, emotional week. I wish I could say, “This was a great week and I had a awesome time” But I cant. Lets just start with Sunday.

Sunday:
I was hoping for a great Sunday morning at church, just like all the other Sunday mornings I have at church (At least when I am not at a softball tournament).

But that is NOT what I got.

At least, it started off wonderful. I got to watch my 2 FAVORITE little boys in the WHOLE world, Blake and Troy, for those of you who don’t know. They are absolutely fantastic. They are 3 and 1. They always make me smile, even when I am fighting back tears. They don’t judge me, and yes I do know they are only 3 and 1. But still, they don’t remind me of every mistake I’ve ever made. They are just so innocent (Well, most of the time. haha) And I love them, and they LOVE me. Which always makes a person feel good :)

After 2nd service things started to go downhill. I thought it was just going to be Beka and I going to 3rd service together, but once again, I was wrong. The boys were there too. But whatever, I don’t care. I just miss “our” time. It is never just me and Beka anymore. We never have time to just hang out, just us 2 girls to talk. But thats what I get for switching schools.

Whatever.

Sunday night was good. It was my Grandma and Grandpa’s 55th Anniversary. It was nice to see them and the family. But it was hard to know what my Grandma has gone through and that she may not be here for to much longer. Just hurts to know. You know? I didn’t fall asleep till WAY late (or early, if you want to be all technical) but that is just me, I guess, I don’t sleep very well. So then on Monday I woke up exhausted and I had BP and volleyball, UGGHH!

Monday:
Monday was interesting. I woke up at like 11:15 and I had BP (which is Batting Practice, or “Hitting” to all the little girls he has) at 11:30. So I got ready in like 3 minutes flat. And for BP it was “Back to Basics Day” Let me just say this, THESE DAYS SUCK! Back to basics Days consist of ALL tee work, soft toss and live pitching. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE live pitching, but I also LOVE the machine just as well. Then I was hit by a pitch in the arm (thanks Rusty) and now I have this huge purple and brown bruise on my arm that hurts every time I move my arm.

Gross, I know.

And to make things worse. It was like 103 degrees outside. And this is why I HATE California.

Volleyball was just rough, in itself. I couldn’t pass. Or do anything right! It just flat out sucked. Worst 2 hours ever in that 90 degree gym.

Tuesday:
Tuesday morning was WONDERFUL! I got to babysit Baby Andrew for a few hours but it was still sooooo hot outside. That’s good ole’ California for you. Then tuesday night rolled around.

Worst night of the week so far.

We got an e-mail about one of my teammates on my 16U softball travel team. (who is also one of my best friends EVER) In the subject box was her name, which kind of confused me.

I opened the e-mail and began to read.

What I began to read absolutely broke my heart. It read somewhere along the lines of this... On tuesday Noey was diagnosed with Leukemia.

What?! Not the Noey I know. Not the one who runs like 50 miles per hour. Not the girl who is always kind and always unselfish. No not her. I can’t even imagine what she has to go through. But what makes me feel better is her positive spirit. She knows God has got her back. And she knows its all going to be better in the long run. Thats a girl. She is my inspiration. :)

Wednesday was nothing special.

Thursday:
More bad news. Grandma is back in the hospital.

You know? For how much I have been in the hospital because my family and friends are in the hospital is crazy!! I just flat out hate them.

They don’t know exactly what is wrong with her, just yet. But she was having bad pain in her back and hip. So whatever that means or leads to, I have no idea.

But what is SUPER gross, is like 2 weeks ago she had one of her pins in her foot (from her car accident about 6 years ago) come loose and cause and infection in her foot!! YUCKY!!

And now I am to Friday morning. Im hoping and praying to fall asleep at a decent time tonight. Maybe before 3. But who knows. I have a long day of cleaning ahead of me, getting all ready for the team party here on saturday. Just what I wanted.
Sorry this blog is so long. I just needed to get things out. Thanks for reading :)

Love always,

Baby Becca :)

P.S. Noey, I LOVE you. And all us velocity girls miss you SOOOOO much!!! (especially me) I miss having you behind me in centerfield knowing you are going to catch all the balls hit to you. (No matter if it is a pop up that I should of caught or a BOMB over your head where you have to literally RUN through the fence!) Which was TOTALLY sweet that you did that last tournament :) You just got up like it was no big deal. Like the Champion you are. We are sure missing you girly. And we all want to see you better and see you soon. Love you, 8.